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I've been skinny my whole life. I put on 30 lbs in the last year, and my family and SO have noticed. Except I don't feel any different. Sure, my pants don't fit as well, but the changes aren't as drastic as I had hoped.

I was hoping to gain some weight and stop when I noticed, but before anyone else did, but now I'm stuck in the opposite situation. Should I gain another 20+ lbs? What if I still don't feel any different?

I don't know that you're going to feel any different emotionally whatever size you get to be.

My weight has varied in both directions since being a teenager. There were a couple of pictures where when I saw them I realized I looked big (and one when I looked small). But my brain seems to think I'm mostly the same until something like my pants tells it differently.

Now feeling different physically is another thing. There will be points where a walk is a challenge, but by the time you constantly physically feel you're fat, you'll be really really fat.

If you're getting reactions and comments, liking said same, and enjoying the idea of gaining, you're on the right track. But it may very well never make you feel different emotionally, even if you get big enough to collapse furniture.

Take what you'd like and leave the rest.

When I gained weight and went from 150 lbs to 180 lbs, I noticed my clothes get a little tighter and some stopped fitting, and I could see my belly stuck out slightly more and had a slight jiggle, but I still felt thin and didn't think others noticed my weight gain. In no time though I realized that so many people noticed. My girlfriend's whole family on both sides would make so many comments about my belly getting bigger and me gaining weight. Her mom made tons of comments as well and even expressed concern in one talk because of how fast I had put the weight on. I remember how good I felt about my gain during that talk and pretending to care about her warning all the while knowing I intended to get to 600 lbs and now higher with my new goal of 800 lbs. She was surprised to see that I was still eating junk food and leading a totally sedentary lifestyle after our talk because I acted like I was concerned so well she made slight hints that I needed to stop what I was doing or I'd just keep getting fatter and that was nice to hear